Posted by: Mistress Mindy (featuring ‘Tony’)
Tonight I want to let one of my clients, Tony, contribute a guest blog about a recent cuckold session he had with me. He had emailed me about this (more like a testimonial), but I asked if he’d like to elaborate a little for the benefit of my blog readers. Here is what he sent. I hope you enjoy.
For the longest time, I fantasized about being cuckolded. I always felt weird and ashamed about it. Essentially, I’ve struggled with these weird urges to be embarrassed, insulted, ordered around for most of my life. I’d always thought I had a normal upbringing, but I realized in hindsight that my mother always yelled at my father and he always looked like her servant in a way… so maybe there’s something there.
Either way, I’ve had my relationships, treated my girlfriends/wife like queens, and yet, while having sex, something in me fantasizes about them deeming me not good enough. I feel like they enjoy it with me to an extent because they’ve loved me, but I get more excited than ever at the thought of some muscle head with a huge cock just bringing out an animal in them that makes me feel inadequate and invisible.
To deal with these urges, I started off by watching MMF porn. I figured maybe I just liked the idea that the woman was having a second cock. However, I stumbled across a cuckold porn one day and realized this was exactly how I felt. I have to say, I was absolutely elated to realize I wasn’t alone. I had thought for years that I was truly broken and alone, wondering why I would have such bizarre fantasies. But apparently, lots of guys out there love the idea of being dwarfed by an alpha male and get off on it.
So even though I’d now identified what I wanted, I didn’t know how to deal with it. My thinking was ‘if I tell my girlfriend/wife about this, she’s going to tell me I’m nuts and leave me’, or ‘she’s going to think I want to swing’… it’s not that I wanted to do this all the time. It’s just a once-in-a-while fantasy that I didn’t feel comfy expressing with them because I wanted them to respect me and love me.
It occurred to me that maybe others were into this and had a solution for how to fulfill the fantasy without wrecking their relationships, so I searched google and found a couple of forums where people talked about a dominatrix offering the service. Eureka! Only problem was, I didn’t know how to proceed, or if I could even go through with it.
After searching through some nearby dommes, I emailed Mistress Mindy last year. I liked her website, her writing (the cuckold stories are such a turn-on) and of course, her pictures. My first contact was like 2 lines, just a general inquiry like “I think I want to be cuckolded but don’t know if I can do it.” She wrote back a very friendly email asking questions about myself, what I was looking for, what elements turned me on, etc… we opened a dialogue, and I was a little surprised that she was so willing to discuss. I’d expected that these dommes would all be bitches who just want money. Maybe some are, who knows.
So we emailed about it, and she said she could arrange a scene that would be right up my alley. But every time I wanted to set a time and go for it, I backed away from the keyboard. There’s a difference between fantasizing and doing. Mistress Mindy was super though – she told me that there are levels of cuckolding and we could ease into it. She said something along the lines of “the first time can almost be more like you’re just watching a live performance, and you won’t be involved at all. Then, if you feel more comfortable, I can start saying things to you, B (the bull) can start saying things to you…” I felt reassured that both of them are pros and can read a situation well.
I finally mustered up the courage and said “ok – let’s do this!” We scheduled a time and met for drinks. Of course she was stunning, and just so sweet, just like in her emails. I went to the bathroom and psyched myself up a bit. I thought about canceling everything, but figured I’d gone this far, why not just do it. We went back to her place and she introduced me to B. He was a good guy – we didn’t talk much, but I didn’t get the feeling that he was a jerk, and that actually helped a bit.
So we went upstairs and she told me to massage her feet, which I did gladly. After about 20 minutes, she asked if I was getting turned on. I told her I was. She asked if I wanted to see her experience orgasms. I said absolutely. She asked if I thought I was the person to do it. I said “I wish I were.” She said “Well why don’t you sit in the corner there, and you can watch.” I sat in the corner as B came in and they started up. I won’t get into the details, but it was amazing – she was coming like crazy, and she would look at me, smile, but not once did she cross that comfort line. It was, as she said, like watching a performance, but it was an amazing intro because B did things to her that I never felt I could. And most importantly, it wasn’t my wife, so I didn’t have to experience any weirdness at home.
We’ve done 4 sessions in total, and we’ve escalated the interaction each time (as per discussions we had about my comfort and what I wanted). To summarize without much detail, the second time, she was asking me stuff like “don’t you wish it was you who was pleasuring me?” The third time, she told me that I would never be capable of making her feel this good. The fourth time, B joined in and also talked about me wishing I could be as lucky as him.
The only regret I have is that it took me so long to actually pull the trigger on this. The fantasies I have in my head while I’m having sex with my wife are so lucid and incredible – no porn compares. Nothing compares to the real thing. I just wanted to share my story because I imagine there are lots of people out there who are in the same boat I was, and I know if someone had told me to just go and do it, I would have been skeptical and still probably wouldn’t have. But I hope my experience can help others not waste too much time that they could be doing instead of just fantasizing.
Please do contact me if you are like Tony was and want to make your cuckold fantasies a reality.